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Umm, the goatee is gone. Not growing a beard.

Skinny I'll never be. More fit yes, but there is just way to much mass here to ever be skinny. My body has to cart me around all these years. There is muscle there. Just have to remove that extra layer to find it.

I don't make jelly's. I create uniquely flavored artisanal jams crafted with care from locally sourced (when possible) Non-GMO, certified organic ingredients.

 

Ok, so it has been a really farking weird past weeks or so...

In the past two weeks I have...

Gained and lost a small child

Forgot my keys, only once.

Dropped my keys under the staircase that leads to my front door.

Ran a red light.

Got 2 parking tickets

Rather odd weeks for me. I don't get parking tickets, I know better dammit. 3.5 years here and nary a ticket, then 2 in two weeks. Car was almost towed too. I was lucky.

This key thing was getting out of hand. I never forgot my keys before. Never ever, ever. This has been rectified.

Heh, I am so glad there was a not camera around when I had to climb over a dumpster, crawl under the stairs and then do it in reverse.

That small child I found then lost...Starting on the 15th I was gaining weight, not a just a little either. In 10 days I gained 38 lbs. The docs were like..WTF! I got seriously depressed. To the point I wondered why I even try. As of this morning I am exactly where I was on the 15th weight wise now. I feel a hell of a lot better too. I was really feeling lousy. Like I don't want to get out of bed lousy. This seems to have now passed too allowing me share this all.

Lets see...

I also manged to piss off my best friend enough that we went from talking daily to a few text messages every few days. We've worked that back out.

I've annoyed a vendor enough to the point where rightly so I was publicly humiliated. I earned it. I'll fix it.

On the bright side, my journal has never seen so much writing activity.

This has been quite the adventure. Cancer was easy compared to this. The swings in both mood and physiology have been incredibly broad.

Oh yeah, I'm getting pretty good at very small batch jam making too.

Been kinda thinking about developing this site too...Prehipstoric Man » Hipster Tips for Cavemen For I didn't realize it but I was hip before hipsters were identified as a sub genre of the species.

Oh well...the adventure continues.

See ya next Wednesday.

 

Damn Gravity...it's pulling me down!

Anyway, I find a bit of catharsis by writing these posts that share how things are going. This is very odd for me as I'm not usually this public with a lot of my life at all. 1 to 1 or small group conversation, sure, but golly jeepers. Google and the Way Back Machine will end up grabbing this. Someday it will probably come back to bite me in ass somehow. Maybe to show how I was once mentally screwed up so therefore I am not fit to run for Dog Catcher...

This past week has been a little better than the last two. Yet there is always some oddities with the good. I forgot both my money clip and phone when going out one night this week. Then I drove home at like 80-85MPH on I 71. Realized the lunacy of that after i got home... Did have a nice evening conversating (as the kids say) with friends while not falling to the temptations of Sonic.

Big projects are still very hard to accomplish. I seem to lack the ability right now to wrap my head around and see the big picture as a whole. Lots of little things are being done though. My indoor plants look great and the jam selections have umm..well gotten a bit out of hand.

Sleep is still a bit of a problem. Maybe this lack of fitful and restful sleep is why I've been feeling light headed the past few days.

My Dad was a pharmacist. I grew up with a negatively skewed view of Eastern Medicine, meditation, yoga and the like. Mostly due to the fact that meditation doesn't sell prescription drugs. Having suspended these beliefs and taken a yoga class I'm ready to try more. I'm starting a course called Mindfulness in Motion next week.

I've signed up for a Zhineng Qigong course that starts in mid-October. I can't pronounce it either.

I knew that was the next question some of you had.

Some in the back of the room, you had a question...Yeah, How am I paying for all this...

I'm not sure who I should be thanking here, but The Ohio State College of Medicine through The James Comprehensive Cancer Center offer, AT NO CHARGE, a wide range of courses, lectures and other activities through the JamesCare for Life program offered to cancer survivors and their care givers.

For those of you coming to the party a little later and wondering how a heart attack and bypass surgery qualify me a cancer survivor or care giver. The cancer thing was last summer's fun.

That's all I got for now. I'm mentally drained today.

 

For those of you playing the home game...

If you picked 5.4 for the latest A1C you would be correct. Sorry those of that decided to stick with the previous 11.2 reading.

 

Transformation



At MOTD



May 13. Newly sliced open



August 14



September 20

 

I do take responsibility for my actions...and oh my, I have been making this apple butter in a new method. The texture is ethereal, makes the flavors just pop.

This is one of the big changes I'm experiencing. The desire to just put it out there and talk about things. I was never this open before. Its been very confusing to me.

The physical transformation is obvious. The one going on inside, upstairs, that is also undergoing prodigious upheaval.